fattttttt !!!!!!!!!!!

I'm new at this so i don't really know how this works .

but i was anorexic about 3 years ago and then i recovered ,

but now i a whale and i hate every second of it !

so i been feeling like complete shit lately,

my weight and the way i look is horrifying,

all i want it to be skinny, and accepted ,

but I'm not.

my boyfriend and i made a pact that we would both lose 40 pounds

so i am more then determined to lose the weight ,

but my eating is not helping me at all

i been a pig today its horrible.

i just feel like if i don't lose this weight he'll leave me

for someone skinnier & prettier then me.

I'm 180 pounds that's disgusting. i really want to be 120

i need help losing my fattiness,

im just sick of it the way i look,

the way my fat just sicks out .

i need to not be fat.

im working out for a hour every tuesday & thursday

but thats not enough , i need to become skinny and pretty