if this is what my boyfriend want me to look like,

then this is what i will become ,

i seriously cannot stand the way i look any longer

its making me sick, i hate myself, i hate the way i look

i hate feeling my fat rolls ,

i hate how i jiggle,

i fucking hate how when i go shopping all the clothes i like are two FUCKING SMALL !!!! thats it ,

im done being fat,

im done eating.

i just want to be accepted and being fat is not what is ACCEPTED so i AM NOT GOING TO BE FAT !!

i will be skinny like the girl in this picture .

i will have fucking CONTROL of my life.

i will eat if i want to ,

i will get high when ever the fuck i want to,

i will starve when i feel like it.

why ?

because im IN CONTROL !!!!!